Just Saying...

Just Saying...

I really don't know what I'm going to do.

Posted: 06 Jun 2012 04:18 PM PDT

I'm still not having any luck finding work. I'm signed on with practically every single employment agent, and site out there. Mostly cos no matter what network you use to find employment, an agency is attached to it. You have to do the song and dance with them in order for them to submit your resume to their hiring client.

What frustrates me, is there are all.these.jobs.out.there. However, I wonder how many are really serious about hiring? I've applied to everything I have experience in, qualify for, am over qualified for, then applied to entry level positions from restaurants, to hotel maid staff, driving positions and everything in between. I've even called 3 of the last 4 employers I've had, to see if any of them were hiring.

I can't be this unemployable. I receive positive feedback from the clients via the agents, as it's part of their duty to report on how you interview etc. I've all agencies mention I have a good resume. It's the economy they say. Everyone is having a hard time. If so, then who are all these employers hiring if there is so many of us having a hard time finding work?

At the end of this month, I will have spent my last dollar. I will not have more money for August rent/bills/groceries. I will have to sell off my belongings and beg a sibling to take me in. And that doesn't feel good, knowing I have 5 siblings, and only one... ONE will temporally take me in. The others, well, they keep saying, "it will all be okay", what they really mean, is they don't want to be inconvenienced with my probable homelessness.

I have a roommate, but he's got a weird way of thinking at times. If he learns that I've run out of money, he'll move out.  Which would make matter worse.

My worse fears have all come to light these past few months. I'm unemployed, single, turning 40, and about to be homeless.

I'm beyond exhausted. I don't even have the strength to freak out, and panic anymore. The reality of it is, I might have to move in with family, if they'll have me. Cos I tend not to take anyone's word, when they offer to help, cos I find most people say that kind of stuff to be nice, and are not really in the position to follow through. So what If I have to go to my family and say, I have to move in? Suddenly, the spare room isn't available. It was all talk.

What am I going to do? One more person tells me it's all going to work out, I don't know what I'd do. Cos what if it doesn't? Then what? I can't pull a job and rent out of my ass after July 1st. I'll be broke, and going into arrears at that point.

I've hit rock bottom. I'm out of options that are healthy and safe.